mean?

i drop my emotions sometimes

they may hurt others
a cruel crime
i don't try

a day goes wrong
("you cheat") ("you're mean")
i cry or weep, but nobody

ever sees the true inner me

i begin day after
day

the same exact way
grabbing my colorful, 
thousand pound books

i pack them away,

not truly trying to be, 
it just happens
every school day to

me.